The Eye of the Storm

13 thoughts on “The Eye of the Storm”

  1. Caroline, You are an amazing wife and mother! And also a very gifted writer! Thank you for sharing your heart, being real, and being such an inspiration to others. I know in my heart this is all going to work out for your good. And God will use this as a wonderful testimony of His love and grace! You and Ryan are overcomers and you continue to overcome every challenge you face. You both are a trophy of His grace!

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    1. Thank you, Connie! I’ll receive that! I never thought of myself as a writer as I’ve never had a longing for it, but who knows maybe it’ll spark something. This has become a way for my thoughts to gather and see my own journey unfolding. It’s healing for me in a way! Love you my sweet friend!


  2. Caroline you don’t know me nor do I know you but I do know that we are sisters in Christ. God has used this message, this day to remind me of His presence in the eye of the storm. Cancer is an ugly disease that can destroy but my God is beautiful and powerful. Thank you for sharing and allowing God to shine through you.

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  3. You are an awesome writer!

    This was lovely. I had a major health event with one of my dogs yesterday, and I realized as I drove away that her illness was beyond my control. I could respond, but I couldn’t change or control or direct the situation. We can’t see everything, we can’t know everything. We do the best we can with the information we have. I’m glad you’ve found peace in this moment, and I know God is taking care of you.

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  4. Bless your heart Caroline! You/and Ryans, pure hearts are a ray of sunshine for many! I am going through breast cancer myself , for the second time around, and much of what you have experienced in your mind, I have encountered. Thankful peace has won out, for us both. I also love how our Lord has used a specific date and time. (“Sept. 18th”) to confirm His assurance to you.
    You are definitely a talented writer! Use it for His glory!
    My prayers are with you both♡

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  5. We are praying for you guys. Our journey has been similar, yet we did most of it alone. Mark wasnt sure he wanted anyone to know, it is better if you have a support system. Our doc told me to wake up Mark at midnight. Ugh.. The night before me going to my 30 yr High School reunion. His white cell count had risen to 40,000. The day we went into TCI the doc says, “Mark you know why you are here? ” Mark says, because my white cell is a bit high. Normal high would be 10,000. The doc says, “well you know you have leukemia right? The doc didnt skip a beat. I saw a tear in his eye. And said, doc can you stop a minute and let us take in what you just said:( then he proceeds to tell him about the three kinds of leukemia and if you ever had to have one his is the most treatable..mind you he wants to start him on a chemo pill callef Tsagnia that is new on Mkt and it gas a black box warning. The black box is there because it could mean sudden death..and also in that visit ( note: it wasnt TCI just yet..forgot..named changed..was Cancer Care Associates back then) had been Nov 1st Halloween just when we go that day on top of it being like a meat Market with people lined up 50 deep almost..there are spider webs, witches, grueling pumpkins, and we go down hall to get blood work and right outside the lab was a large grim reaper..kid you not..not making this up..:( then the doc also says in the room, ( mind you we know nothing about keukemia, except white blood cells are effected at that point…he tells us look up and don’t look at other sites also ( mind you he actuakly is open to nutrition as we find out later visits) we pray about his options..if no treatement he says, he would maybe live three yrs. well PTL this is coming up on two yrs.
    then we pray about the older med to treat this And the doc won a nobel prize for actually worked good for Mark. We also consulted Doc Joel Robbins and he had a consult with 6 other docs on Mark’s behalf conference call. They all decided best to do both in his case. He started the older med with no side effects except tiny bit orbital water retention..then he dod healthy eating..within just about 4 weeks his numbers went to normal.

    God was good…Doc Robbins told Mark for him, the med was like being in Dukes of Hazard Car crossing over next town before Boss Hogs caught up to The General Lee, he understood that concept..for him the best of both world’s payed off. For Mark’s mom, she had female cancer yrs ago just before we got Married in 1986, she did yr of juicing, raw, and took Lilly Vernom shots for something like 21 days straight..she got rid of growth with in less then yr. she taught us a lot back then. She loved of neat stories on there.

    This is just a tiny part of Mark’s testimony. Today he is in what is callef Molecular remisdion by docs..he iscovercomin a low ACTH pituitary hormone level along with a tiny 7mm pit spot and adrenal spot and kindney cyst..they have evaluated all of it..dont think any is cancer, but keeping eye on kidney. He recently got laid off his job after 22 yrs and just had to take disability due to fatigue, but we know God is in control and He is working. Our insurance is 1300 a month with a 6,000 deductible. So we are sorry we can’t help at this time you guys financially( he prob should don Go Fund me too for our friends as well) he wants to be able to take a simple vacation somewhere even just to sit by the lake somewhere or in Branson even, but with bills and stuff we arent at this point. I have a heart for us getting involved with helping men’s cancers because I see that men fall through the cracks and their families. There is so much support for women’s breast cancer and female cancers, but not so much for men. I also see that Children’s cancers support groupd help families take all expense paid vacations when there isnt much again for men…maybe this are things wr learn so we can all help one another.. I feel Carolyn, like you just wrote our story. Thanks for sharing.,and know we are with you guys supporting you too. I often pray for both of you in middle of night. The best thing I have learned through this journey of loosing 4 parents(a death every 12 weeks for a period of time), inheriting an aunt with memory stuff and moving her three times in one yr. and then Mark being diagnosed all while fixing up and selling our home and fixing my parents home and buying their’ it His Grace in THE MIdst..this is part my book title and journey over last few yrs.

    We somlove you both and send big hugs. Psalm 107:20 is our agreement prayer:)

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  6. Thank you for your story! It helps to read from people going through the same thing.

    Just wanted to add.. you are a great writer. Great writers don’t follow the rules of writing necessarily.. they write like people actually think and feel.. whether or not it follows some rulebook. For example, ” It can’t be cancer. It can’t be cancer. It can’t be cancer. ” Those lines put the reader right inside your feelings at the moment.

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  7. Caroline, I have been following Ryan’s videos and just found the blog. I love your writing and when you joined him in the video the other night. I am a 4+ yrs cancer survivor who chose no chemo or radiation. I just want to encourage you to continue to do what God has called you to!!!


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