My current understanding leads me to believe that we must dig until we find the root cause(s) of illness. It is seldom one thing as most of the time it is a multi-faceted conglomerate of root causes that finally tips the body into dis-ease. Therefore, to think one thing will cure a person is ignorance in my opinion (although I sheepishly admit I wish it weren’t so). That’s why it “comes back” or why the one thing that is so miraculous does not work for the next person. Overcoming dis-ease requires a multi faceted approach. It is a search into the soul as we dive into everything in our lives: emotional, spiritual, physical, toxins, stress, diet, lifestyle and more. On the other hand, because our bodies are so amazing, perfection is not required for the body to heal. Our bodies desire to heal. Our bodies are made to heal. It just needs help. It needs us to love ourselves. Love that can be expressed emotionally, spiritually, physically, thru what we eat, even thru what we breathe and so much more. Love is all around us. We are loved. We are created to love not only others, but to love ourselves.

As I look back at our journey what I do know is that we have done the best we could with the information we had at the time. Of course, there are many things that we could have done, should have done or should have NOT done. But, there are many things we did right. Many decisions have catapulted us into better people with further understanding of love and grace.

Before I detail out what we have been going thru these past 6 weeks, I would like to recap our journey.
September/October 2015: Diagnosis of advanced Stage 4 Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. (Ryan already had 1.5 liters of fluid in his lung cavity at diagnosis)
November: Alternative Treatments and Diet overhaul at CHIPSA in Tijuana, Mexico. We also made a questionable decision to have a lot of dental work. Hindsight we realize it was too much dental work due to Ryan’s current condition as it caused many issues and inability to eat and continue diet and treatments for a period of time.
Mid-December: Local hospitalization due to pleural effusions and ascites. Ended 2015 by being told Ryan had 2-3 months to live if he didn’t do chemotherapy + immunotherapy, BUT that the chemo could kill him in those first two weeks because of his current health status at that time.
January: Went back to CHIPSA for additional treatments and with a group of doctors that included allopathic doctors, naturopath and nutritionists, Ryan came home in February a whole new person with no fluid issues at the time.
March: Fluid issues returned and we traveled halfway across the world to Cebu, Philippines for photo dynamic therapy and other ‘questionable’ treatments.
April: Two hospitalizations, one weeklong each and several ER visits at local hospital in addition to many paracentesis and thoracentesis procedures.

Now for the last six weeks . . .

In mid-April I finally came to the conclusion that Ryan’s organs is what needed the most help, especially his liver. For the last few months I kept digging, reading and researching trying to figure out why Ryan was continually having fluid issues in the abdomen (ascites). There are so many possibilities, but at the end of the day thru consulting friends who are doctors, naturopaths, talking to those that have been in similar paths and lots of guidance thru meditation I landed at the fact that there are two issues truly going on: the liver is in toxic overload due to acidosis and because of the vicious cycle of draining fluid out of his abdomen and lungs, the body was not keeping up with the protein levels and albumin levels. After the first hospitalization, we chose to start with a clean slate and Ryan began taking Dr. Morse’s cellular botanical herbs and certain supplements from our local naturopath. We knew quickly that something was working as Ryan’s hemoglobin jumped from 8.0 to 10.2 in ten days and several other blood markers were making dramatic improvements as well. The month of April was very emotionally dense and we had to work thru many things (hopefully, at another time we will have time to dig into these topics).

At the end of April and into May Ryan was hospitalized again. At the hospital we worked thru fears and worked thru a lot of “what if’s” in our lives. We worked thru all the possibilities of life and how we wanted to move forward. We sought counsel from those that have had similar experiences in the cancer world all the while allowing ourselves to be guided by our soul, our gut and our heart. Call it whatever you want, we sought the Holy Spirit for guidance. Letting all shame, all pride, all the fears and everything else go. We wanted to be at peace no matter the next steps. We purposely did not share this side of our lives publicly as we wanted to make these decisions on our own. Not even our parents knew of these specifics.

On May 10th we met again with the oncologist. Of course, his recommendations did not change. Chemotherapy plus immunotherapy to be started immediately. Respectfully, Ryan declined chemotherapy, but let the doctor know he would be willing to start immunotherapy (Rituxan – for more info, click here). The doctor replied with, “that’s the old lady’s drug.” But, he would be willing to start there. He also made sure to let us know that just doing immunotherapy may not be enough and/or it would take longer to see results due to the extent of Ryan’s tumor load and condition. He was also very clear to explain that chemotherapy and/or immunotherapy may or may not solve the fluid issues. Ryan expressed his understanding and they mutually agreed to move forward. Ryan and I were at peace with this decision.

If you know me, you would know that I dove into research again and learned every side effect and possible outcome of the immunotherapy drug. I learned and re-learned more about detoxification as I knew this would continue to be very important to Ryan’s healing and ability to go thru these additional treatments. Ryan and I settled into what we believe is a pretty good plan for us currently. Here’s a quick rundown:

1. Mostly raw vegan diet with freshly pressed juices.
2. Almost daily use of infrared sauna.
3. Almost daily use of lymphatic machine to move stagnate lymph.
4. 3-4 time/week ION foot detox bath (powered by the Rife machine)
5. Daily use of essential oils (especially Frankincense and JuvaCleanse)
6. Dr. Morse 14week protocol plus additional herbs
7. Some additional supplements and additional food herbs
8. Getting out more to walk on grass and soak in the Sun
9. Almost daily enemas (coffee, lemon and/or ‘heal all’ tea)
10. Occasional epsom salt baths.
11. and, more as we see fit
(and, once a week immunotherapy infusion for 6-8 weeks)

Some ending thoughts:
No, we are not perfect.
Yes, we are on top of the Albumin and Total Protein levels (which is really an amino acid issue). AND, every week there is improvement on his lab work.
No, you do not have to eat animals to get your protein and albumin levels up.

We do understand that there will be critics out there that’ll say .  . .
1. you SHOULDN’T do immunotherapy
2. you SHOULD have already DONE immunotherapy
(and, WHY won’t you just do CHEMOTHERAPY as well?)
3. you are doing TOO MUCH
4. you are NOT doing ENOUGH
5. that machine or that treatment is WORTHLESS
6. that machine or that treatment is the ONLY THING you need
7. you should eat meat
8. you should not eat meat
9. you should be a fruitarian only
10. you should be a vegan
11. you should be a raw vegan
12. you should take THIS pill or do THAT treatment
13. and the list can go on, and on, and on.

In other words, “YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH.” To those of you with adamant opinions I ask one thing. Do you think you are perfect? Do you think you are good enough? I have learned that the root of criticism is one’s own self worth. In addition, criticism is also aided by lack of relationship or understanding of the one we are criticizing. You are welcomed to be you, just like we welcome ourselves to be us. We chose from day one to be open and public thru this journey. That choice means we experience the judgment of many, but at the same time we get to experience the never ending stories of encouragement, love and gratitude. In the end, it is our story, our journey. No one else’s. We just choose to be open. We welcome you into our journey and hope that maybe there is something in our journey that may impact you positively.

Live loved. Live free. Live your life. 

 

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13 Comments

  1. mikevanderkooi June 13, 2016 at 11:44 pm

    Well said!
    Thank you for the update. We love you both so much!!

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    1. Melissa Trujillo June 15, 2016 at 12:48 am

      such a powerful and beautiful testimony! Thank you for sharing your story, you have come so far and are a true testament of Faith, Determination, and Perseverance!

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  2. Caroline, you and Ryan are truly God’s chosen to teach and love through the midst of your pain, learning and success. Some are quick to judge, I pray all will support your family with positivity and love. Thank you and Ryan for being real with us. Much love and blessings.

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  3. Great Update! Thank you for sharing. My husband and I will keep your family in our prayers. ❤

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  4. Thank you for sharing your journey. Praying for you, Ryan and the kids and your continued strength and Ryan’s health. You both have been amazing and brave in sharing your story and allowing us all to learn Thank you!

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  5. Thank you Caroline and Ryan for sharing your journey! Caroline, what a blessing Ryan and your children have! You have always been passionate about your family’s health. What a great assistant healer! Ryan than you for sharing so openly your journey. It has inspired me to not continue to put a bandaid on medical issue but dig for answers or solutions. You two have always been a blessing. Now you are reaching around the world inspiring people! May God continue to bless you with wisdom, time and health! We will continue to pray for the family!

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  6. Elizabeth Garza June 15, 2016 at 7:11 pm

    Thank-you for sharing. Will continue to pray. I know that your decisions are guided by the almighty because of your relationship with HIM. So peace abounds as you live, and strength is portrayed by HIS grace on you. BLESSED

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  7. […] ***While I do believe immunotherapy has been a big part of Ryan’s improvement, I do NOT believe and refuse to give all the credit to Rituxan. When Ryan started on Rituxan he had already been on several treatments since mid to late April. His labs had improved dramatically and the lymph nodes of the neck were already decreasing. I personally believe that it was everything TOGETHER that allowed for Ryan’s body to make some major headway on apoptosis (cancer cell death). I also believe that it was my ability to stay ahead of issues by ensuring Ryan was taking certain herbs/supplements and doing major detoxifying. For example, after the first week of Rituxan Ryan’s white blood cell count dropped several points. He started on blood, spleen and bone marrow herbs and his blood cell count recovered back to perfectly normal in a week. Everything we are continuing to learn from the “natural” side has aided in Ryan’s dramatic improvements. For more of what we are currently doing, please view my previous post (the Path to Healing).*** […]

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  8. Kelly stewart June 17, 2016 at 8:18 pm

    How are you using the essential oils? Topically or internally?

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    1. At this time topically on the abdomen (Frankincense and JuvaCleanse) and we diffuse Frankincense and Thieves often. Trying to not burden the liver too much.

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  9. You are to your husband as I am to my wife, our journey has been almost 5 years. Nobody really understands it and how it can change a person a relationship and the very world we are privileged to occupy. In a few hours we board a train for Denver, flying is no longer an option. We seek the advice and skill of probably one of the best Dr’s for my wife’s disease. He is a man we know well and respect. This may be the final chapter for us. I hope not. We were warriors too, still are. But now we both are weary. My wife has had no chemo, no surgery, no radiation. She has had PDT, we have traveled across oceans seeking treatment in far off foreign speaking lands. We have consulted with many, and we have counseled many. I have come to admire a man with a funny name who did what was said even now impossible . He was a genius if only he was still with us to guide to help. I still hope one day that our Rife machine will do that which it can . I believe. What a rollercoaster it has been. The friends we have made the things we, I have learned. Why us? Why me? Why not? I rush you foods dotted and bleeding on your journey. I truly feel your pain, your love, and yes sometimes the loneliness. We didn’t seek to be the heroes others make us out to be. We do what we have to. It’s quite simple, how could we do any less for someone we love so much.

    Good bless you
    Gary

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  10. Thank you for sharing your journey. I came across your blog whilst searching Chipsa which I’m considering to get treatments from. I’m a cancer patient myself and we can all learn from each other. It is often difficult for other people to truly empathise with us, we get sympathy, and right now that’s not what we need, we need empathy more. I feel you, Cancer can throw you in different directions, it’s mind boggling! Sometimes I feel it’s mere luck that I’m still alive, the guessing game of which supplements or modalities to take may be working:)
    The RGCC test in Greece will be good,I wanted to do that but it’s so expensive, at least here in the UK. Good luck I hope that gives you more direction. The body may be sick but you’ve always got that good head on your shoulders to rely on. You’re doing right by fortifying that, and harnessing the innate energies of life and of the universe, and strengthening your spiritual connections.
    Ours is an evolution more than a journey. I relate so much to your blogposts, thank you. Sending love, healing energies, and prayers. Being Strong is the Only Choice We Have ❤

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  11. […] Posts: The Path of Healing 6/13/2016 The Results 6/17/2016 An Open Heart ~ Let’s Clear the […]

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