“we should have’s” are only a rabbit chase into a never ending set of possibilities, both positive and negative.
Shouldn't packing up my husband be a joyous occasion? Is it the fact that I have come to love so many of the nurses, doctors and staff here at CHIPSA Hospital that every goodbye hurts? Is it the fact that we finally get to go home and my heart is happy that the treatments are working? Is it the fact that they have cared for my hubs so well that fear is setting in on what the next 90 days requires of us at home? I imagine its all of the above.
We live in a society where we have incredible access and tons of information that we can glean from. There are many books, articles, blogs and more which hold all sorts of points of view with data and statistics backing much of it. While information is good the overload makes it hard to decipher what direction to go.
The doctors here treat a patient as a whole. They are not interested in just attacking the cancer and leaving the rest of the person ill physically and mentally. They realize that beating cancer and living a healthy life comes by looking at everything: mental, physical, diet, nutrition, supplementation, lifestyle and more. The conversations we have already had with the doctors have been therapeutic and soul searching.