What if everything I wanted was right in front of me and only fear stood in the way? What if I was currently living a life that was more interested in making others around me happy than what I really wanted for myself?
A deep desire to search again, to reclaim what is already there and dig through the muck of what we call fear, love and everything in between.
Shouldn’t packing up my husband be a joyous occasion? Is it the fact that I have come to love so many of the nurses, doctors and staff here at CHIPSA Hospital that every goodbye hurts? Is it the fact that we finally get to go home and my heart is happy that the treatments are working? Is it the fact that they have cared for my hubs so well that fear is setting in on what the next 90 days requires of us at home? I imagine its all of the above.
Be honest. Be open. Be vulnerable. Be real. Let them in. Let them join the adventure. Let them see the
Ryan’s biopsy. . . It was a whisper that helped my heart today. It was the sun rising from the horizon.